Life Lately

I've probably said this well over a hundred times, and so far, every time I've said it I haven't been true to my word. I keep saying that my posts will be up and running soon, but soon never seems to arrive. The odd scheduled post goes up, but my schedule is well and truly shot. I am writing this on the day of publishing, and at this moment in time, I have a billion other things that I should be doing - instead I'm writing this blog post to tell you about all the things I should be doing. I have work placement for the next four weeks, and with a 9-5 schedule as well as my university deadlines, I am exhausted to say the least. I think hectic is a bit of an understatement, but my life is absolutely crazy at the minute. I've been trying to put myself and my academic work first, and to some extent I feel 'happy'. I thought life would have quietened down by now, but again I have been proved well and truly wrong. I have one assignment deadline left to meet, and until then blogging is going to be taking a back seat. 

I'm currently five weeks away from finishing my second year at university (scary right?), and besides wondering how I've got this far, the pressure seems to be piling up. Over the next few weeks I have to submit a proposal for my major research project (aka my version of a dissertation), and above anything else - I have to think about what I want to do when I graduate. GRADUATE. I know what I want to do in life, and roughly what I need to do in order to get there, but where it all falls down is the fact that it all relies on how well I do now. This morning I got a pretty bad result on one of my assignments, not terrible (it was a 2:2 FYI) - but significantly worse than my lowest grade this year. I spent four whole weeks writing that essay pretty much 24/7, and to almost be told that it was rubbish is absolutely soul crushing. 

I may or may not be posting over the next couple of weeks, but believe me when I say that it is not because I have forgotten. I am well aware that posts aren't going up and comments aren't being replied to. But currently there physically aren't enough hours in the day to get everything done. Who even needs sleep nowadays? I hope that you will stick around because I have quite a few ideas planned, all I need is the time to sit down and make the plans a reality. Come June, university will be over and I will have 6 months of freedom to get up to speed before returning in late September. Until then I will most likely be non-existent here on Charlotte Sophia Roberts. Apologies for this, but I consider the rest of my life more important than a hobby I have enjoyed for the last two years. 

As always, thank you for reading and I hope to see you soon!

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Taking A Time Out: An Update

Hellooooooooo! First of all NO it isn't Sunday, and this isn't my regular 9am Sunday post - you haven't got today off. I'm posting this incase you missed yesterday's usual post and the first couple sentences in it. So just incase you missed it - I am back. I repeat I AM BACK! I have a real urge to write out the lyrics to Without Me by Eminem, but I will resist that urge as I feel it is way too cliché and I don't want to be that person. (Guess who's back, back again, Charlotte's back, tell a friend...)

In case you are waaaaay out of the loop, haven't tuned in for a while or whatever.... a month or so ago I announced that I would be taking a well overdue break from blogging to focus on my health and well being. After almost two years of twice weekly blogging, I obviously found it extrememly hard at first to go cold turkey as it was part of my weekly routine. I kept checking up on my comments and page views, and had an overwhelming urge to write a schedule a few blog posts. At the start of my break, I was disappointed that my page-views had dropped dramatically, but I guess that was going to be a given thing considering I wasn't really blogging. Statistics aside, my health has improved dramatically - my stupid eye twitch has pretty much stopped twitching, but not entirely. When I am in a stressful situation, working out, or in times where I can feel my anxiety spike, my eye likes to let me know that it's still in it's socket! After my break I feel a lot more relaxed, insanely happier, back to my crazy organised self - and all together more myself. I've enjoyed kicking stress in the butt, and I will continue to try and keep my stress in check. (Also if you're interested in a few stress related posts - let me know!)

Although I am back, I will be gradually easing my way back in, dipping my toe into the water gradually. I don't want to waste the sheer amount of effort it took me to feel ok again, and end up having to take another month or so off. I also want to point out that I am sitting some end of year exams in April, so my main focus will be revising for them as opposed to worrying about getting every. single. post. up. on. time. So if one day there isn't a post up, please understand why.  

It's really nice to be back, and I will try and get a few posts written and scheduled this week! 

Thanks for reading!

Love Charlotte x

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Taking A Time Out

Over the last two or so years I have experienced a lot of changes in my life. I've started university, created a blog, had some of my bestest friends move away to other cities, and generally just had my life crumble around me. And although mentally I feel absolutely fine with all this, my body has decided that life is getting too much for me to handle. I've had a constant eye twitch that has lasted the best part of 6 months, what I can only describe as morning sickness on pretty much a daily basis (without being pregnant obvs), full on mental breakdowns (which my lovely uni friends were kind enough to help me get over), and a short snappy temper that can emerge at any given time. Although one of my new year's resolutions was to make more time for myself, I haven't seen any reduction to my stress levels despite working so hard to reduce them. I've tried apps to reduce anxiety, colouring books, relaxing music, reading, meditation, yoga... - everything I could possible think of! I know we aren't that far into the year, and I have seen myself feeling a bit more relaxed over the last couple of weeks, so I will continue to dedicate that little bit of time for myself everyday.

Although I don't actually feel stressed or anxious, and I have absolutely no reason to be as I have no assignments or deadlines to meet or anything. But being a psychology undergraduate, I know how detrimental stress can be to your health (I'm taking death here people), and I'm really starting to worry about my general health and wellbeing. And I'm not being a hypochondriac, I am seriously worried. Obviously I have to put myself first over everything, so under the circumstances I have decided to take a month or so off from blogging (and a few other things) in the hopes that my body can relax. This doesn't mean that no blog posts will go up; I will try and get plenty scheduled so I am still here whilst not really being here if that makes sense? And at the end of the day, I started blogging as a hobby, and at this moment in time I need to focus on myself rather than worrying about getting posts up on time. 

So until further notice, I am out of office... Dreaming of a holiday in the Caribbean, and cocktails on tap. Fingers crossed posts will go up as normal - but my blog comments, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, etc. will be pretty much abandoned (sorry!). I'll let you know when I'm back in business, and I hope a break will hit the refresh button and bring with it lots of fresh ideas for content. 

Apologies for abandoning you - I hope you understand!

Thanks for reading, and I'll see you soon!

Love Charlotte x

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